bEHInd mE!!!!???

believe it!!!

2008-06-26T23:33:00.000-07:00

snake???
for me snacks is UNIX animal...
for me snake is beautiful animal...(is it???)
and for me, snack is asotic animal....

from my dashboard you all can see my picture hang snack...
actually there was at zoo negara...
that's is my first time to hang snack...
for your information...
snack would not attack if he not feel hot...
when snack hot he will attack,so..
quickly pour water...
it will not attack!!!

I'm not scared to hang snack...
but.......
I'm very scared with cat!!!!
i know its weird...
buts that was true...
i can't find the reason why must i afraid with cat...
eventhough cat was a cutes animals(pets)...

sometimes...
i feel I'm very weird about that....
but...
what can i do????
that was the real me!!!

sometimes....
people will say bad thing with my 'weird habit'...
but.....
i never want this habit....
its just comes!!!!

i hope you all will believe it....

why must i afraid????

2008-06-21T00:09:00.000-07:00

last night is very difficult night for me.....

its not about scared with high place....but scared about 'something' its difficult to see.....do you get what I'm just write about did???

i feel very scared....its very dangerous 'things'.......

OH GOD!!!please help me.........

suddenly my hand have one red sign.....

after 2 minutes...i get 3 more red sign....

after that.....4,5,6,7,8...............red sign!!!

oh no!!its getting worst!!!i got all of my body....

what must i do???????I'm shouting..........

AAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

suddenly....i heard one voice.....and said........

'close that window...that why la all mosquito getting in!"

said my mum.........hehehehehehehehe........................

I'm scared with mosquito to...... ; )

last night my family and i going back to AYAH village....

all my cousin, aunt and uncle said that I'm rich girl....

can't live in village....that not true...for me village is the only one peace place..
i love to stay in village to....but, my skin is very sensitive...so,what should do???????

its very fun!!!!!

2008-05-27T19:11:00.000-07:00

its very fun when we not afraid anymore....i not afraid with high place anymore!!!!its very cool,ha??!!i feel excited with many high place...i forget to take photo when i go flying fox..so,for this blog...i will show you my next photo to prove that i not afraid with high place anymore...i went to Tasik Titiwangsa... which have a 'giant playground' called EYE ON MALAYSIA...i can see such a beautiful Kuala Lumpur...OH GOD!!...if before this i'm not afraid with high place..for sure that i will see so many beautiful things in this world...BUT thanks because give me strenght to not afraid with high place anymore...this picture i take at night...eye on malaysia very beautiful at night...its can change many colour...so,who want relise tension..why dont you go there...beside have a beeutiful eye on malaysia...its very peace!!

nOt afraid anymore....

2008-05-26T00:31:00.000-07:00

on the labour day 2008...it was a big change in my life..people that i love has asked me to go to Genting Hingland to celebrate our 2nd anniversary...i can't avoid because he has bought the tickets...so,i must go!!on the same times, 2 of his friend have same anniversary with us..but in a different years...we went together by bus as it is include in the package package...before that day,i told him that i'm very afraid with high place..when i say that,he not shock..he said that he know about me although i never talk about that...oh God!!...on the even day..he fecth me early in the morning at 6.30 a.m...he brought me a bread and Milo for my breakfast but i decline...i was thinking that if full we will vomited...and faster he said,"just follow my way dear..."so, i just follow because i don't want to screw up on what he has planned...when we almost arrived there..i'm very afraid..my phobia comes back!!i told him that i want to go back...but after he bagging to me...i become okay(just okay!!!)...first i went cabel car...very scareddd!!!!after all,it become very fun...my feel change a bit...and finally i arrived at the 'crazy playground'....first,i went to one game called spinner..it just like a swing...but that swing will turn to highers swing...UNbelieveble i don't feel want vomiting and afraid...that's COOL ha!!!!i feel so excited...then i try played to any other games and i NOT VOMITING!!!!i feel very GLAD!!!!i try many games...if i can call genius book of record...i will call...hehe..we went back at 6.00 p.m...by the way back..he give me few tips before playing agames like that....

our stomach cannot be so empty and cannot be so full...

choose easier games for starting..

shout!!!don't keeps your feeling...

believe that game is safe...

think that it is very fun

and the most important is that the guidance must be always support us!!!

i'm not afraid with high place anymore...i've tried went flying fox and i successed!!for anybody was afraid with high place out there...lets try my tips... :)

thankful

2008-05-25T17:45:00.000-07:00

Since i was young..I'm afraid with high place...Normally children's will feel fun when playing at playground especially at hinger's part but no me..My family always asking me to go to Genting Hingland because people always said there is 'city of entertainment' ...the road not so safety,high place,and cold make me not interested to go there..for me, genting hingland is nothing except crazy playground and challenge myself..my family always attempting me so i will not afraid anymore..on January 2006,my sister my sister brought me to 'pre-Genting Hingland'...(it is actually Times Square at Jalan Imbi, KL..)without my knowledge..when i was there, i feel very shocked and knowing that i just enter into my phobia zone..before that, when i look people around me very excited,happy play the game..I'm also excited..Its unbelievable!when my sister asked me to play the game and without think longer i just agree...i was excited..my phobia gone!!!But the excited not so long..when the game start,suddenly my feeling change..i felt like tsunami!!Nothing in my head,except like tsunami!!!(because that year Malaysia undergo Tsunami disaster)I'm feel very thankful when its end..but i can't durable anymore and believe or not,i vomited infrunt of thousand of people..shy??!!i don't care anymore...i felt phobia with high place..it getting worst because when i want to go down by escalator..I'm very afraid..I'm afraid want go upstairs in my house...I'M AFRAID!!!!its take 2 week to become normal back...thankful because my family always support me...